“Accept whatever happens to you; in periods of humiliation be patient. For in fire gold is tested, and the chosen, in the crucible of humiliation.” Ecclesiaticus 2:4-5 Over the past week I have felt betrayed and humiliated. My integrity and my work were questioned, and although I came out on top, it didn’t make the experience any easier.

We go through hard times to push us to be the person we need to be. This was an unexpected trial and I’m not sure as to where it will lead. I know sometimes I have to be shoved into my next chapter in life, and I’m not sure if these occurrences are to help me move on, or to simply help me grow.

In times of pain I reflect on what I am supposed to learn in the situation. Life is a series of learning experiences, and in the hopes of only having to learn a lesson once I try to pay attention.

One lesson I have learned in situations like these is to be kind in the face of adversity. This is not an easy lesson for someone who likes to fight her battles. I don’t appreciate unearned anger directed toward me, and I don’t stand for false accusations made about my work or my character. In times when I feel myself wanting to scream and win my battle I have to remind myself that the words I say cannot be taken back, and if I sink to that level my character sinks with it. This is not to say I haven’t failed in the past and wished I could take back the awful words I have said, but I started out in life a kind person and I would like to finish life the same.

Another lesson I have learned is to be grateful for the norm. We tend to miss the good in our day-to-day lives because we forget that it can be considered good. We love the days that the sun shines and everything is wonderful, but everyday has its positives. On the normal workdays I remind myself of some of the great people I get to work with, and the lack of problems standing in my way. I may have tasks that I don’t want to do, but I am capable of doing them. I may have some minor aggravations, but nothing that should shatter my day. After all my family and I are happy and healthy and that’s what matters most.

Although I don’t enjoy any of the trials I go through, I learn to see the silver lining. I am able to find joy and love in the mundane and be grateful for the life I get to lead.

Until next time,

Kaycee

P.S. My favorite song today is Crushin’ It by Brad Paisley